Thursday, December 12, 2024

i feel unreal

 i struggle to recongise my face
and somehow i look the same
i am crafted so carefully by considerate moments
                                                                                and meals i forgot to eat

obsessed with paraphernalia
                        aesthetics
congruent shapes fit more easily
i am congruent with rocks

tied myself to the colour green
                         the letter D
i wear a face i don't even see
     so well how you know me
        like the green and hills unseen
there's still such a long way to go
  remnants of reminiscent men
        a momentary pilgrimage
while
        congruent shapes fit more easily

i saw a castle and it told me
                                            your past is dead and you're not far off
one day you'll understand it took all of this
                                                to feel okay with being yourself
                                brick by brick
                        oh but you dissect me so well
anatomically constrained by this
                                    endless ticking clock i press to wake me up
                                                                                get myself paid
timesheets of trains and shifts and minutes until
`                                                                        I'm gone
                                                                your past is dead and you're not far off
IT'S THE DRUGS DAVID 

partly blind in my right eye    
        equip a blindfolded
        and trust each step will take me where i need to go
                                                id be crazy not to follow where I'm led
                                                                                       [and i would be lying if i said my life isn't entertaining]
but rocks don't really exist
        and somehow at the same time 
a castle can prophesise  
                            heartbeats
                
my flaking of fragments
pieces of dave
lay shattered in the world around me
and you could hold it for a moment but it's just. a piece
            of the whole I'm trying to collect
to tape together
                then lace with gold

i see nothing at my feet

-D



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i feel unreal

 i struggle to recongise my face and somehow i look the same i am crafted so carefully by considerate moments                              ...