what was written

nero

this crazy crazy man

loved by the people of rome

killed two of his wives

kicked a wife to death who was pregnant

lowered taxes for the people

kept them happy and housed

his mother once begged for death to be relieved of her relations to him

stab me in the stomach where the monster was nurtured

aLLEGEDLY

you see,

nero wasn't liked by his peers of the senate,

and political enemies were the main ones recounting him

his name has likely been dragged through the dirt.

engraved in the timeline

its weird hearing about people who lived

i find myself relating to the humanity of figures so ancient

they are no more than words on a page

and spoke in tongue that we could never understand

but i understand a part of something that has been passed through ancient to modern hands

i was recently reading Homer

that guy is fake (maybe)

but there's no way that the storylines have stayed the same as its been passed down 3000 years

what changed?

what niche references to lives lived have been lost to time?

how lucky are that after thousands of years of history the good guys won every time?

right?

history is more like an intergenerational narrative

sure, learn from the past blahablahnlah.

    i used to believe all that was written was true

but they easily could waffle as much as i am right now

how many innocent people are in jail?

the mother who watches the man who murdered her son walk free

what happened < what is widely accepted

what would the world be like if hitler had won?

global aryan supremacy? 

would jewish people still exist?

would i exist?

my family migrated from europe post ww2

how many people would've wedded another?

how many families would never have existed?

judgement

of myself and what I've been doing

a choice freeze

impostor syndrome

Sometimes I finish a [insert here] and surprise myself

sometimes i start a [inser]t and fucking suck

some fina; thoughts coz this shit been sitting in the bank too long:

how does information get lost

how doesn't someone just remember it

word of mouth get lost in translation? generational?

When will instagram die out

that vile, parasitic beast

what was written is nearly is funny is what's been said'

most of everything is made up and you are tricked by a magician each day

it/'s also a load of fuckshit and dickheadery regardless

stop taking life so seiriosly and just live

-d