transient(s)

[D] became aware that the moment one attempted to measure a moment, it would be gone:

the truth is we change without ceasing

I wish i could hold a moment in a glass jar and put it on my shelf
                                                                              let it gather dust
                                                                     the flashing lights and
                                                                              thud of the drum
                                               your eyes made my heart beat faster
                                                                     your skin against mine
                                                                        the taste of your lips
                                                                                           a bite

the remnants of your scent on my bedsheets
how do i wash this away

I'm told that pretty birds fly away

it would be against its nature to keep it caged

but by god was it beautiful

imperfect, impermanent, incomplete

beauty in the tragedy

        we had something real
                                            life as I've known it has ended
and I'm still trying to understand what has replaced it
i am a mirror in a liminal space
my days...
            blip

mais tu me manques

how dramatic am i being on a scale of 1-10

your shadow lingers
````` I'm trying to lose it

                                                    by checking:

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rent prices

job listings

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can take my physical away
                     but somehow,
i cant keep you away.
                                                                    and
           id rather do nothing with you
than something with somebody new
because i'm always looking at yesterday when tomorrow comes
                i could be more present
this moment only lasts for right now
not something i want but i need
       to embrace change

                    and ignorance is truly bliss
        [imagine to not know the high they're missing]
            so let's pretend we're strangers
Let me get on my costume
                                                hold on a sec
blend in with the crowd
                While we pretend

to do something important
            All a ruse to try and forget you
because I couldn’t know you and not love you.

yet you never find the same person twice

                    not even in the same person

i wont forget you though
            you will be in my jar of wistful memories
            that ill blow the dust off

when i need to teach my son about heartbreak

or when i need to remember what love feels like

i wonder if I walked past you in the street

would we just exchange glances

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my dreams lie to me

i don trust how i feel

I'm playing myself

i still feel my pocket vibrate with the phantom of what was

and it's weirder because i still look at my phone and want to see your name

i don't trust how i feel

how do i let go

how am i supposed to let go

timetimetimetime

the sun's going down
        look up at clouds
        the orange and pink
    if you just looked up
                      sunk into the grass
                            they’ve been there the whole time
they're going to float away

just like everything else

so I'm smiling that i just got to see them
                    that one looks like you


one thing more important than time
      is who we decide to spend it on

-d

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