the 'making poor decisions for character development reasons' community

Its almost a sadist practice but putting yourself in the deepend of shit because then you learn how to surf in shit and if a nice wave comes. Youre probably better at surfing because of it? But also, because life is going to throw you in shit regardless and you may aswell do it first so there’s a sense of control of fate.

A weird 1-2 combo trying to fight against nature and the fact that yes, you will die, and no, you cannot do anything to stop that. So, you take control by being stupid to say that you lived when you die. T0 see the depths of what breathing has to offer, the ecstasy of the highs to the pits of the lows, the importance of feeling fully and being÷ vulnerable to getting smacked in the face by an ‘ I don’t feel the same’ or an alarm after 3hours sleep. Or speaking your mind to people who staple their ears clsed.

Itd be stupid to pretend that this was a one-way street, the poor decisions almost always take on collateral, unintentionally. The selfishness that comes with living. If I put anyone before me id be living for someone else which in itself would be a disservice to the thousands of generations of stupid animals humping senselessly. So I try and live with more intention, and with that – at this age – I tend to just ufck around and find out, instead of taking caution.

Opportunity shows its iris not often, so best believe im staring into its soul.

-d